Behind Broken Bugs

I think I broke the game.

And that I could have done something better with my life.

I could have continued, but it's one in the morning. Time to sleep.

What the hell am I doing?

Cya in the year of the horse!

Behind 2014: A Wish

So it's been a week or so into the new year, and it's been going quite good.

New books, new lecturers, new resolutions.... Although we all know what actually happens to resolutions, don't we? ;)

I decided not to have a New Year's Resolution for 2014 for precisely that reason. Instead, I am going to have a Blog-ly Resolution. Using my blog posts as deadlines for certain goals I should achieve, then I would be less likely to fail.

Set smaller goals, and achieve them easy, nae problemo.

But, will I get around to actually setting goals by the time I write my next blog post? Or would I be put off blogging completely so that I would not have to see those goals ever again?

Ah well.

GOAL #1: VISIT THE GYM THREE TIMES.
GOAL #2: MAKE A NEW GUY FRIEND.
GOAL #3: HAVE AT LEAST ONE PHONE-FREE LECTURE.

3 goals are two too many. But it's the ambition that counts :)

Met my friend for lunch the other day. Let's call her.... May.

Currently studying in Uni of Penn. (IVY LEAGUE!) Standard overachiever.

First met her at the JPA camp. Seems pretty nice.

Also part time Dragon Slayer.

But the thing about overachievers like her is that often she becomes a butt of jokes, of sorts. Just because one has different pursuits and timetables compared to the average student and knows that one is more ambitious and smarter than most, one is labeled arrogant and lifeless.

Is this the norm of society, to make sure that everyone fits in to a standard mold? Or is this just jealousy, to make someone else feel bad for something you can't do?

I guess it's human nature to make others the same as yourself.

I realise that I am very prone to this phenomena though. As if I change or dumb myself to fit in, because I fear they will not accept the real me.

Perhaps I was too scared. Perhaps I was too timid.

Not this year. No words but my own.

May endured the words, or maybe she blanked it out. Either way, she got into Penn, and that's due to her hard work, even though she might say it was grace.

If words can't affect her, I see no reason it should affect me.

This is not a resolution. This is a wish, one I will make true.

Cya, winter.

Behind 2013: A Reflection

I know I'm supposed to be studying, what with exams less than a week an all. But it's the last day of a momentous year, and I feel that I should write down what I feel about the year before it slips away forever.

So yeah. A lot has happened this year, globally and personally. Of course, this is a blog. If you wanted the highlights of the world for the year, you should have visited the news portals.

Yeap, this is looking out to be another rant.

What happened this year? Well, in a nutshell, I tried to be a better brother, had my heart damaged and stitched up, thrashed A-Levels, had doubts, made great friends,  had awesome experiences with them, learnt the bulk of my cooking skills from beloved Mom, fought for a scholarship (much appreciated!), went to uni, lived alone for a quarter year, explored my faith, got almost drunk for the first time, and won most of my shouting competition with my inner demon. And those are only the big events.

Whoa. THAT much has happened?

Time flies.

Speeding through the regions, you can call me Red.

But one thing is for certain. I am not the same person I was 365 days ago. I've learnt, and I've grown. (Hopefully.) But not enough. The fact that I am here blogging on New Year's Eve instead of watching fireworks and boozing shows that my social skills still have room for improvement.

Admittedly, I have acted quite stupidly through some parts of the year, and if I had offended anyone, I am truly sorry. But that's what growing up is all about, eh?

It's been ups and downs, but mostly ups. It doesn't take much to make me happy, or at least, stop be from feeling down. A little is needed.

I know, that the journey will only get harder from here. But if you're a gamer or similar, you will know that that's where the fun starts. :D The joy of achieving something you always wanted for a while is indescribable.

Which brings me to resolutions. They say New Year Resolutions are pretty much doomed, so I thought, let's not make New Year Resolutions! Lets make them every other day. Set goals for yourself everyday, so you will continually....

LEVEL UP!!!

But seriously. I'll make this short, cause quite bluntly, exams.

Bring it on, exams!

Bring It On, 2014!

BRING IT ON, LIFE!!!

FOR BACON PANCAKES!!!!!

Cya next year! <3